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there's so much to do but so little time...its like economics applied to the real world. oppurtunity cost. its really relative. i mean look at my dad and me. we're in the same family, we're blood relatives, i share so many of his characteristics. so many. just ask my mum. but when it comes to oppurtunity cost, we're waaay different. i mean he would probably rather read some boring business book if he was free and i would probably chat or something. or whatever teeneagers do. its so relative. kudos to whoever invented it man. i mean, its right there in front of us. the root cause of our inherent differences. and some guy came up with it. out of the blue. and we had to be taught in school why we are different from others. it makes you feel really stupid. that you cant understand why you are different from others.

i feel stupid.

this comp is so slow.

are we really more intelligent than animals and machines. i mean, yeah we can talk. yeah we have emotions. yeah we have a big ol lump of grey mass up there (even though we only use like 0.4% of it or something). but are we really intelligent? i mean, isnt that an over-generalization? who defines what intelligence is? no, really. who? just coz you do better than me in a school test does that mean you are more intelligent than i am? does it mean i'm stupid? or a machine or an animal? just coz some personality test on the internet says im emotionally weak does it really mean i am? i mean, who made that personality test? was he/she qualified to determine people's emotional intelligence? and who set that test in school? is he/she qualified to determine people's intelligence? can a bunch of people in the government base their decisions on which school to send which kid to on these tests? shouldn't school be a place where all ure inherent intelligence is tested? who decides who the government is anyway? aren't we more powerful than the government anyway? what right do they have to break childrens' spirits, to tell them they're stupid and to completely demotivate them to study and work harder?

they dont have that right. nobody has that right, except maybe you yourself. only you have the right to put yourself down. to kill yourself slowly by telling yourself that you're stupid. but why would you right? why would anyone...

you have no idea.

i dont know what i wanted to actually say today...i just came online with this idea of blogging (im supposed to practicing for SAT now. if my mum finds out im screwed). and i dunno where that came from. but all of it is true. its omfg true. esp in some places, like singapore. where people dont have their priorities, or should i say, oppurtunity costs, straight.

anyway, gonna go do my SAT prep. 1 word of advise: do not re-take your SAT and even if you do, pay for it yourself man. seriously. >.<

w.t.f.

Today met up with Priya and Nini. Cannot believe how much fun we had today, just sitting in one place and talking about everything. I mean it. Every single thing under the sun. Well, at least every single thing that we had time to talk about coz I had to leave (mum = party pooper).

Anyway, I was just thinking how this world has so many types of people. And there are so many definitions of how many types or categories of people there are. I mean, my brother, for instance, would differentiate people as good and bad. But, you know, obviously the majority of us would think of it in a more complex way. Actually its quite mind boggling thinking of how many there are. Shit! I cant even begin to list the type...

But I have to say the majority of Indians that I have met are all really manipulative. Im not talking about the local Indians here in Singapore. I mean they are just different. A whole new different situation. What im referring to is the Indians from India. Indian Indians. Well, they’re really cunning and manipulative. They will not stop and think about others at all. Not even one tiny bit. They will just push ahead and reach for their goal in life without pausing to think about social repercussions caused by their actions.

This is obviously really irritating coz its not right. You know. [Shit im so deep into TOK that I cant even stop thinking about the different definitions of the word: 'right.' Wtf.] Whatever happened to the value of relationships? To the human quality of compassion for your fellow humans. Essentially, what happened to being nice?

But, (this is another consequence of TOK again) this quality is good in a way, ruthless as it is. It’s a really strong weapon, especially today. I mean if you have this manipulative ability, people don’t hate you. Well, they do. But they not only hate you, they respect you. Their hate is probably born out of a longing to be in your position or out of their envy for you, the bearer of this manipulative skill. And with the respect, there also comes an increase in status, money, 5 Cs etc.

So basically what im driving at here is that in today’s world, to be able to be 'not-nice' is the coveted human quality; its what everyone is aiming to be. Everyone wants to be that person on the top rung of the societal ladder and everyone will definitely admire/respect/envy(hate) the person who currently occupies that space. Who, in turn, no doubt got there by being not nice. Im not saying that everyone on top is the same way…its just that this is true more often than not.

I suppose this quality of not-niceness is necessary to a certain extent in everyone in order to survive nowadays. I mean, you cant expect to be stupid, publicize your stupid-ness to the general public and get away scot-free. People are gonna take advantage of you. There are always those out there who have that malice in their heart to take pleasure in the suffering of others - ok that’s a really melodramatic way of putting it >.<

So in order to combat those people it is necessary. I concede this. But the amount and the intensity of this quality that is exhibited in the society shocks, stuns and disgusts me. And nothing anybody says will change my opinion on this. Nothing.
p.s. this post does not refer to any specific incidents that happened today. But it does refer to certain individuals I have the misfortune of knowing and the experiences I have unfortunately had with them or witnessed happening, culminating today.

im home! again.

came yesterday morning. didnt call anyone though coz i was damn sleepy and i slept the whole day. chatted for a while though, talked to ppl from TISB and sok. was good. and then we went to swensons!!!! and i ate this yummy chicken thingy and coit tower and had a tummy for the first time in 3 months!!! (not that im elated about the last part >.<) and then i watched parineeta (this hindi movie with saif ali khan in it, who is good enough to make any movie good. but apart from him, the movie was really amazing. i love it =) and then i went to sleep at like 2 in the morning.

and sok if u read this (which i know u prob wont) im so sorry i didnt call u ytd. went out. =[

so anyway, im still tired today coz i had like maybe 11 hrs of sleep in the last 2 days. i look more like a panda than ever. >.<

i really want to go and watch MUNICH!!!! unfair. i mean i am turning 18 this year (scary.....wooo...). am in a weird mood. like to see fulstops on the screen. is it fulstop or fullstop? ,............. ............. ......... ...............

gtg do important stuff. like save the world. or my nose. could be either one. nose = more important. im not making any sense am i?