u know this post is really gonna be a testament to my blog name (look at the blue bar above)...its gonna be filled with mixed emotions...i cant seem to feel just one emotion rite now...i tried..i even tried starting in positive and negative ways just now but i deleted them coz its not true...and even if it was very tempting..i dont really wanna lie on this blog coz its....
well. i dont wanna lie..becoz. lol.
ok so im really happy coz...IM FINALLY 16. haha..im considered an adult =) yay. and if i was in USA i would be happily driving a real live car by now instead of taking the bus...or, horror of horrors, walking .. lol (i am so envious of my cuz grr..).
Anyway...
so as i was saying...im 16 and i get to watch NC-16 movies (finally)...i can just walk up to the movie ticket counter and say that i want a ticket to watch "meet the fockers" (which is NC-16) and the lady will go: "OK. You're 16 now! No prob!...haha..ok this is way lame but its cool...i guess its just becoz i had to wait so long y'know..everyone was turning 16 and there i was...still 15..haha..only people with birthdays in late dec would know what im talking abt...and also i get all my presents late coz everyone is getting ready for the new school year...it sux living in a country where the education cycle is jan-dec...GRR..
so far my presents have been good...since my b'day ive only met my parents and priya and my parents will be getting me sth soon...when they have time to go shopping and priya and her sis got me THE ROTK VCD..and a ring and pendant to 'get me in tune with my *ahem* feminine side' lol...yay..thanks dudes...the present was great =) *beam*
and of course im excited that the new year is gonna start and im gonna enter a whole new phase of life which is gonna decide basically my entire life for me: JC...which is in fact pre-uni...
but im also depressed coz the coming of the new year means..,,,
no more cedar. no more familiar sea of blue. no more nonsensical hanging out before el or wtv. no more recesses with familiar and close (i hope) friends. no more laughing and joking with people whom u've known for 4 years of ure life. no more familiar surroundings. no more taking 154 and getting down at the choice bus stop. no more to the bus stop walks. no more yakking about everything under the sun.
life is getting complicated and diversifying and i dont want it to. i just want to stay in what my life is now.
that said, it doesn't mean i wanna change ANYTHING that happened these 4 years...everything that happened shaped who i am today; even if it hurt me or someone else or some other people even. but i really hope i never hurt anyone. i know some things haven't turned out the way i would've liked it to and some relationships were broken prematurely and im terribly sorry. but i also believe that it was meant to happen; that if our relationship was terminated so abruptly in such a short span of time, it was never meant to last, it was never strong. i think if those people ever read this post they'll know what im talking about...or at least i hope they do...
but on the positive note, ive matured alot and forged, on my side anyway, friendships that will hopefully endure through our seperation in school life...im a natural extrovert. i cannot last long without friends and i know how important they are and how sucky life could be without any really close friends in whom you can confide and put your trust and i hope i never lose these friendships.
thanks to everyone who has made me what i am today; whether it be positive or negative, whether they be my enemy or friend; thanks alot. =)
ok. haha. im back in character. stopped being serious. back to laughing...lol..but seriously when i sat in front of the computer just a while ago i never thought all this would come spewing out in such amazingly long torrents. that was hard for me to type. correction. hard for me to read after i typed it. haha...never knew i was actually thinking about that. oh well. the mind is a complex varied thing.
or at least mine is haha ;)
p.s. my heart really goes out to the victims of the tsunamis. im really sorry. and im sad too. i know whatever i say here will be very insufficient and insignificant but i couldnt end without saying it anywayz...
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Monday, December 20, 2004
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Gahahaha im back and this post is long overdue..
Gahahaha im BACK and this post is long overdue..
ok i went to NZ and it was like the bestest holiday i have ever had. seriously. totally. ultimately. absolutely. definitely. and this was not only due to the overwhelming presence of hot guys. hot guys. and more hot guys. and not only because i actually worked up the courage to talk to some of them. haha. it was cool. seriously...like during the toobing i talked to this american guy who was 18 and gorgeous...he looked like errr...keanu 'cept he had brown hair and blue eyes...*drool*..ok anywayz..haha prolly never will meet him again..
ok so the trip was awesome...everything abt. NZ is so cool and wholesome and brilliant and beautiful. i mean u always dream (ok at least i always dream) abt. standing on top of a cliff and yelling ure lungs out when ure really overwhelmingly emotion-ful (lol)...but i actually got to do that...it was amazing...not to mention lots of other things like glacier trekking, horse trekking...and I SAW THE LOTR SITES!!!!!!!!!!
ok i dint see everything...just isengard, amon hen, lothlorien, the misty mountains and the dead marshes...but those are like MAJOR PLACES...and i rode a horse that was actually used in the movie!?!?!?!?! His name was sam and he was totally kewl....haha...and i saw the exact spot were boromir died in FOTR...that was amazing...and i finished reading ian brodie's guidebook to lotr locations for free...it actually costs a little more than 30 bucks but i read it for free!?!?! haha..everything abt. the trip was basically gob-smacking =) yay *tiny jiggle*...
ok so i descended from euphoria into the depths of reality with a *plop* on sunday...actually monday morning at 2 am...haha...it was kinda relieving to be back in Sgp coz everything was familiar and i dint need to wake up at 7 am in the morning anymore...that was the worst thing abt. the NZ trip coz we had to wake early in order to drive to another motel and reach in time to do other activities...
anyway...the past week in Sgp (even though a bit depressing) has been loads of fun...most impt: the posting results!?!?! i got into NJC...my mum was quite disappointed but i was ok with it coz for the first time in my life i get to wake up at 7 am and still make it in time for school!!! haha...its loads better than wrenching ureself from bed at 5.30 am every day..5 days every week...gawd...i am SOO done with that..haha..so that was the big news on friday...i think alot of ppl didnt get into their 1st choice coz of the immense competition this year...all the jcs have lowered their cut-offs quite significantly...its not fair at all...but anyway its just for 2 months and i'll prolly end up staying in NJ if i (please please please please please) do well in the O's...i'll have to go and curl up somewhere and die if i dont make it back into NJ...argh...whatever happened to "live while ure young"...this is supposed to be the most enjoyable and unforgettable period of my life...its definitely unforgettable..only for the wrong reasons..haha..anywayz
other than that the past week has been quite fun really...on thursday i went trekking on BT hill with priya and her family minus her dad...nini was supposed to come (AHEM) but she couldnt on account of washing her hair too many times and going down with a cold...nevertheless it was sooo much fun!!! it was cool seeing priya moan and groan (haha)...ok im so mean...but i think im not wrong when i say that even though she's physically challenged (haha) she prolly enjoyed herself alot as well...and we got the prom glam shots from beauty world centre too...
OMG i almost forgot..AH HOCK IS MARRIED TO HIS LADY LOVE AND THEY"VE GONE OFF TO PERTH FOR THEIR HONEYMOON AND I SAW HIS WEDDING PHOTOS!!! caroline looked like a fecking horse man...i mean when she smiled u couldn't even see any happiness on her face...it was like she was being forced to be there...her dress was quite nice though...and ah hock cut his hair again and his face looked too big for his tux (wolf whistle..yeah rite) in the photos...he dint look happy either...and we saw his family and all...and his niece ( i think)..this really fat girl who was the bridesmaid...haha...anywayz so that was real funny..then priya came to my house and we watched phonebooth and finished a whole tub of wall's creation ice cream...and had a cup of coke each...haha..that was fun..
then friday i went to SH's house and watched ROTK extended version (envious glare in SH's direction)...ive been begging my mum to get me the 3 in one so i can finally have a proper movie marathon lasting more than 12 hrs...but whenever i mention lotr she turns mysteriously deaf...hmph...haha anyway...the hans jansen interview of the man with the beeg blue eyes and the american voice, elijah 'woods' was really hilarious...dom monaghan is a actor cum extraordinaire *is that how u spell it*...he was really cool..esp the wig part and the way he said "why" in that baby-ish quavering voice which had SH and me in stitches...and the part abt. sean astin being gay...elijah wood's expressions were really the clincher though..haha..and also the part where dom was like "i dont see how anyone can hate u mr. woods, with that beeg blue blue eyes and that american voice" and elijah had this weird expression and replied "err..thank u???" haha..anywayz..it was really fecking KEWL...and ROTK extended is really good..it included the confrontation with saruman and all...and had more eowyn + aragorn in it..haha...aragorn is a hottie in lotr...yay!
ok this post is really long
and then ytd..i went to priya's hse and nini came too and we baked cookies!! haha nini too...*surprise surprise* lol..and we watched finding nemo and heard priya sing a christmas carol and had loads of fun...
actually the main reason why its been loads of fun is that ive been out of my house for the most part of the last 3 days...its been really kewl..
ok i gtg..over n out =)
ok i went to NZ and it was like the bestest holiday i have ever had. seriously. totally. ultimately. absolutely. definitely. and this was not only due to the overwhelming presence of hot guys. hot guys. and more hot guys. and not only because i actually worked up the courage to talk to some of them. haha. it was cool. seriously...like during the toobing i talked to this american guy who was 18 and gorgeous...he looked like errr...keanu 'cept he had brown hair and blue eyes...*drool*..ok anywayz..haha prolly never will meet him again..
ok so the trip was awesome...everything abt. NZ is so cool and wholesome and brilliant and beautiful. i mean u always dream (ok at least i always dream) abt. standing on top of a cliff and yelling ure lungs out when ure really overwhelmingly emotion-ful (lol)...but i actually got to do that...it was amazing...not to mention lots of other things like glacier trekking, horse trekking...and I SAW THE LOTR SITES!!!!!!!!!!
ok i dint see everything...just isengard, amon hen, lothlorien, the misty mountains and the dead marshes...but those are like MAJOR PLACES...and i rode a horse that was actually used in the movie!?!?!?!?! His name was sam and he was totally kewl....haha...and i saw the exact spot were boromir died in FOTR...that was amazing...and i finished reading ian brodie's guidebook to lotr locations for free...it actually costs a little more than 30 bucks but i read it for free!?!?! haha..everything abt. the trip was basically gob-smacking =) yay *tiny jiggle*...
ok so i descended from euphoria into the depths of reality with a *plop* on sunday...actually monday morning at 2 am...haha...it was kinda relieving to be back in Sgp coz everything was familiar and i dint need to wake up at 7 am in the morning anymore...that was the worst thing abt. the NZ trip coz we had to wake early in order to drive to another motel and reach in time to do other activities...
anyway...the past week in Sgp (even though a bit depressing) has been loads of fun...most impt: the posting results!?!?! i got into NJC...my mum was quite disappointed but i was ok with it coz for the first time in my life i get to wake up at 7 am and still make it in time for school!!! haha...its loads better than wrenching ureself from bed at 5.30 am every day..5 days every week...gawd...i am SOO done with that..haha..so that was the big news on friday...i think alot of ppl didnt get into their 1st choice coz of the immense competition this year...all the jcs have lowered their cut-offs quite significantly...its not fair at all...but anyway its just for 2 months and i'll prolly end up staying in NJ if i (please please please please please) do well in the O's...i'll have to go and curl up somewhere and die if i dont make it back into NJ...argh...whatever happened to "live while ure young"...this is supposed to be the most enjoyable and unforgettable period of my life...its definitely unforgettable..only for the wrong reasons..haha..anywayz
other than that the past week has been quite fun really...on thursday i went trekking on BT hill with priya and her family minus her dad...nini was supposed to come (AHEM) but she couldnt on account of washing her hair too many times and going down with a cold...nevertheless it was sooo much fun!!! it was cool seeing priya moan and groan (haha)...ok im so mean...but i think im not wrong when i say that even though she's physically challenged (haha) she prolly enjoyed herself alot as well...and we got the prom glam shots from beauty world centre too...
OMG i almost forgot..AH HOCK IS MARRIED TO HIS LADY LOVE AND THEY"VE GONE OFF TO PERTH FOR THEIR HONEYMOON AND I SAW HIS WEDDING PHOTOS!!! caroline looked like a fecking horse man...i mean when she smiled u couldn't even see any happiness on her face...it was like she was being forced to be there...her dress was quite nice though...and ah hock cut his hair again and his face looked too big for his tux (wolf whistle..yeah rite) in the photos...he dint look happy either...and we saw his family and all...and his niece ( i think)..this really fat girl who was the bridesmaid...haha...anywayz so that was real funny..then priya came to my house and we watched phonebooth and finished a whole tub of wall's creation ice cream...and had a cup of coke each...haha..that was fun..
then friday i went to SH's house and watched ROTK extended version (envious glare in SH's direction)...ive been begging my mum to get me the 3 in one so i can finally have a proper movie marathon lasting more than 12 hrs...but whenever i mention lotr she turns mysteriously deaf...hmph...haha anyway...the hans jansen interview of the man with the beeg blue eyes and the american voice, elijah 'woods' was really hilarious...dom monaghan is a actor cum extraordinaire *is that how u spell it*...he was really cool..esp the wig part and the way he said "why" in that baby-ish quavering voice which had SH and me in stitches...and the part abt. sean astin being gay...elijah wood's expressions were really the clincher though..haha..and also the part where dom was like "i dont see how anyone can hate u mr. woods, with that beeg blue blue eyes and that american voice" and elijah had this weird expression and replied "err..thank u???" haha..anywayz..it was really fecking KEWL...and ROTK extended is really good..it included the confrontation with saruman and all...and had more eowyn + aragorn in it..haha...aragorn is a hottie in lotr...yay!
ok this post is really long
and then ytd..i went to priya's hse and nini came too and we baked cookies!! haha nini too...*surprise surprise* lol..and we watched finding nemo and heard priya sing a christmas carol and had loads of fun...
actually the main reason why its been loads of fun is that ive been out of my house for the most part of the last 3 days...its been really kewl..
ok i gtg..over n out =)
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