AAAAAAAAAAAH im shit scared. i wish it was like those fleeting moments of scared-ness or paranoia that will just leave you trembling in ure socks for like a while and then poof ure back to normal. but i cant stand this long drawn-out thing which is sadly getting worse by the day. ive never dreaded anything more in my life. never ever. i swear. not even my o level tamil paper. im being completely serious.

thankfully all this packing is completely driving my thoughts away from friday. i really like being busy right now. even though most of the time i'm a lazy pig. ok not a pig. that was just a non-literal reference. anw. its like bad enough knowing that you're not going to see all the people you normally wake up seeing everyday for like more than 4 months. its even worse when it all comes and hits you that you are not going to see hide or hair of them and that you're going to be living all alone for the first effing time in your life. and when you have an overprotective mother, which is good in some ways, it really scares you when you have to finally let go and be independent because the transition is much tougher than if you were independent by nature.

*sigh* i hate thinking about this. ok moving on..

meeting ohfiveasstwelve today =] im sure we're gonna have loads of fun!! cant wait *beamz muchos* and meeting chitra and sherin at school today too..managed to somehow persuade my mum. thank god my dad is at work today. he would have never said yes. >.<

ok that didnt work. im still thinking about what i'm trying to not think about.

oh shit. its the day after tomorrow.

shit shit shit shit shit. im gonna die.

oh eff. why cant life be as easy as my maths o level paper?

will this waiting ever end.